F a C a D e

Woah woah woah, now. Did i just do something serious? YES I DID! Praise Helix! Or the sun! or... whatever you want to praise, really.

point one: this took me way too much time and i didn't even put into it all the things i wanted.
point two: i noticed a lot of particulars are pretty much invisible if you don't zoom in the canvas (particularly the red threads), soo... please do that.
point three: i passed pretty much half of the time i spent on this trying to understand how to make THOSE GODDAMN TEARS. 
point four: this all actually began from a sketch on my diary, i tough it looked cool so i "digitalized" it.

Alright, well, now let's get to the explanation. I was inspired by some songs and my own feelings in some moment of frustration to do this. This drawing pretty much fuses the concepts of "keeping a face and personality who is actually not yours to please others" and "being manipulated by others, or being incapable of refusing things to avoid disappointing them" (i couldn't find a title that expressed both of them tho...), and while i can relate with the first only on to a certain point, i definitely know how the second feels like. It's like, you try your best to please people, but they want ypu to take part, and you don't know what is right and what is wrong anymore, and you just feel really guilty. You don't even know wich side you should back up, so you end up in a maze of endless confusion and depressing stuff, and you kinda end up hating yourself.

phew, now i'm done with the outburst, soo.... see ya!   hope you enjoy this despite my not exactly professional skills